break me down

[KARA LEE RICHARDS]

i can feel you all around me thickening the air im breathing
h o l d i n g o n t o w h a t i m f e e l i n g
Savouring this heart that's healing.

"Yes" He seemed so sure with his answer, so sure that he would love her tomorrow. He continued on, "And the day after tomorrow... Drunk or somber, you're all I think about" She couldn't believe it to be a lie. Dylan had never lied to her before and after everything, what reason did she have to doubt it? She could still here him today, begging her not to do this to him. It had killed her to hear it and even more so when she had to turn and walk away. But he was back, giving her a second chance. She wanted to take it more than anything. She didn't want to be without him if there was another option and here he was, giving her that other option she was searching for. He'd come here, told her he loved her, that she was all he thought of. She was always in his head, just like he was always in hers. But, on the other hand, she'd hurt him and he'd said he wanted to die. What if he did? What if he didn't but she hurt him again? Both the thoughts scared her. She didn't want him to die and she couldn't stand the thought that if he did, it would be her fault.

His arms remained around her, holding her close against him. Did he know how special he was to her? She didn't have the words to tell him what he meant, the way he filled her and the place he held within her so she remained quiet. How had a game of dare had brought them together like this? Why had it taken seventeen years to find someone who actually cared about her? She pushed the thoughts aside, attempting to stop herself questioning everything. It seemed there was something in everything that she didn't understand. Instead she turned her mind to the comfort and safety his hold provided. She never wanted him to let go. "Thank you for not giving up on me." she said quietly into the late night darkness.

Tagged`Dylan
Status`complete
Word Count`344
ooc` is k =]
Not sleeping is stressful,
it leaves you with too much time and too many thoughts =S
This ones a crappy post too sorry
lyrics`all around me - flyleaf

[DYLAN MARSHALL TORRES]

YOUR DEFENSE WERE ON HIGH, YOUR WALLS BUILT DEEP INSIDE
YEAH I'M A SELFISH BASTARD BUT AT LEAST I'M NOT ALONE
MY INTENTIONS NEVER CHANGE, WHAT I WANT STILL STAYS THE SAME
AND I KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO, IT'S TIME TO SET MYSELF ON FIRE

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'Thank you for not giving up on me.' she said in the darkness. It was so dark. Everytime they were intimate, it was dark and Dylan felt masked in a way- which is really weird because during these times he was most exposed. Could it be that the real him was fake and the bad ass him was the real one? Could it be that this was a dream? He was drunk. No, he believed this like he believed the other night. She was here, in his arms and he loved her more than anything. He wanted to tell her more but felt emptied. Everything he had NEEDED to say was said and she had accepted him back. He still felt empty, and he did feel relieved. It was strange, the creeping peace that waltz in slowly with her like a mellow jazz song.

Giving up on her? Typical irony, huh? "I couldn't give up on you... even if I wanted to." he said, feeling so honest. It wasn't the brutal honesty meant to hurt others, which he had used so much. He had hated his coldness. This was warmer, less soaked with resentment and bitterness. He continued holding her close, refusing to let them seperate again. Never again. She wanted him... he was wanted. He wouldn't fail her. He'd protect her, support her. He'd do anything for her now. She was the treasure he finally found to keep. And she wanted it that way. That was the craziest part. He was almost needed now. Even as drunk as he was, he understood what this meant and how this would make him feel tomorrow.

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TAG - kara!
WORDS - 273 words
NOTES - -poofs out of nowhere- sorry to disappear on you!! super short, sorry!!
LYRIC - 30 seconds to mars

[KARA LEE RICHARDS]

i can feel you all around me thickening the air im breathing
h o l d i n g o n t o w h a t i m f e e l i n g
Savouring this heart that's healing.

Nothing else mattered to her when she was in his arms, the rest of the world just seemed to melt away. She could relax and enjoy the comfort he bought her. He would keep her safe. He wanted her, maybe even needed her. He loved her. "I couldn't give up on you... even if I wanted to." he told her. In the silence she gently wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed his jaw before resting her head on his shoulder. With her face against his neck she closed her eyes -the time, darkness and quiet world was getting to her, her tiredness starting to creep in. It would be so easy to fall asleep in the safety and warmth of his hold but still she didn't want to, unsure if Dylan would leave when she slept. Did he still want to die? The thought of his death was a terrifying one. The thought that it could be her fault, sickening. She wanted to make him happy and give him reason to live, not the reverse. She kept her arms around his neck, not wanting to lose him and glad he still held onto her. She was drained, a combination of the hour and the stress of fighting emotions. Tomorrow she could wake up strong and maybe, just maybe, Dylan would still be here with her.

Tagged`Dylan
Status`incomplete complete
Word Count`227
ooc`It's fine, are you okay?
Im sorry I can't finish this tonight.
Will finish it as soon as I can though sorry.
sorry for the wait and that its short and sucky,
am struggling with life at the moment
lyrics`all around me - flyleaf

[DYLAN MARSHALL TORRES]

YOUR DEFENSE WERE ON HIGH, YOUR WALLS BUILT DEEP INSIDE
YEAH I'M A SELFISH BASTARD BUT AT LEAST I'M NOT ALONE
MY INTENTIONS NEVER CHANGE, WHAT I WANT STILL STAYS THE SAME
AND I KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO, IT'S TIME TO SET MYSELF ON FIRE

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It was so nice, so refreshing to feel someone close to him. To have someone listen to him and not interest or have a snap comment back for him. To have her so close and her lips pressed against his jaw. She rested into his shoulder and he relaxed easily to the side of the bed still on the floor of course. He felt as if he were in a hallucinating rapture. Was this even real? Was she really here with him still? He was still alive? What about the gun in his room, hiding under his bed? What gun? Right? Question marks after question marks led him to sleep soon after she fell asleep.

He woke up in the next morning, realizing a very harsh blare from the window leered down at them. Damn, it must be late into the morning he figured, head splitting with a massive, determined hang over. It took a while for him to remember, to realize Kara was still close. What he had done, what he said, what she said, the comfort she brought when she got close to him... She was so genuine, like dogs are. Loyal, forgiving, loving... not that Kara was a dog or anything. Suddenly, she was the world to him. Literally! She was a sun he was missing as he had been wondering around in the dark. God had led him to her, he knew it. He felt it, even through his hang over.

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TAG - kara!
WORDS - 244 words
NOTES - i just had to go to this wedding out of state and then i got distracted with other things. but actually... things are awesome! i joined eharmony, just for kicks but met someone <333 i don't want to get ahead of myself but wow... i love him. XDDD and that post was fine! ee, i hate being all cheery when someone's not...sorry. what's up?
LYRIC - 30 seconds to mars

[KARA LEE RICHARDS]

i can feel you all around me thickening the air im breathing
h o l d i n g o n t o w h a t i m f e e l i n g
Savouring this heart that's healing.

She'd forgotten what it was like to be close to and love someone, and be loved. This was the sort of thing she'd been fighting against all her life, scared of loving as it had always meant loss to her, but now here she was with Dylan. And this wasn't even caused by family bonds or pure survival, this was a choice they had made voluntarily, it was a choice she didn't regret. It felt right to have his arms around her and feel nothing but his presence and his warmth. Would he hold onto her forever? Nestled in against his neck she was unable to keep her heavy eyes open, but closing them she slowly fell away into sleeps calling with his arms around her.

Consciousness began to return as she started to wake the next morning. Realising someone was with her was enough to wake her fully. Opening her eyes she found she was on the floor of her dorm room with Dylan, the sunlight from the world outside assaulting them through the window. But that didn't bother her, her mind was on the fact that he was still here. She hadn't just dreamt his saying he loved her or her falling asleep in his arms. It was all real. Gently raising a hand she brushed her dark fringe from her eyes, still relaxed with a calm happiness floating within her. Nothing outside the dorm room mattered at that moment, not while he was here.

Tagged`Dylan
Status`complete
Word Count`246
ooc`that's so good to hear! =] Good luck with the guy!
And it's k, Is just stuff going wrong as it does,
haha nothing too dramatic.
I'll live =]
lyrics`all around me - flyleaf