Post by zaley maria bradley on Jan 6, 2010 23:56:58 GMT -5
ZALEY MARIA BRADLEY
SO NEEDLESS TO SAY I'M ODDS AND ENDS BUT THAT'S ME ,
stumbling away slowly learning that life is ok[/i][/center]
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[/center][/color]seventeen[/font]
female[/font]
group b[/font]
allie absolute[/font]
schizophrenia, and the desire to control it, coupled with a mother who couldn't take it any more[/font]
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SAY AFTER ME IT'S NO BETTER TO BE SAFE THAN SORRY ,
the things that you say is it alive or just to play my worries away?[/i][/center]
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[/center][/color]personality[/font] zaleys personality is a bit odd, but that probably has something to do with the fact that she is a diagnosed schizophrenic. while zaley herself is bubbly, smiley, very kind and polite, her condition tends to complicate things a bit. zaley has what you might call an imaginary friend but she knows of as "anna", the spirit of her twin sister who died at birth. "anna" is zaley's proclaimed best friend, even though she often says things that no sister or friend would ever say (things like "you're not worth anything", you know, basic self-esteem killing stuff). anna constantly reminds zaley that if she took her meds, then well anna would go away. zaley is happiest when anna is happiest, but she struggles with low self esteem and fights with her "sister" a lot. zaley prefers to keep her condition a secret, because she is terrified of people finding out and abandoning her, as anna tells her will happen. (all the general population knows of is that zaley has a twin sister she talks about a lot and does not always get along with), so they don't understand when she sometimes has bizarre mood swings or why she has such trust issues. (anna is quite opinionated and likes to tell zaley when people don't mean what they say or are trying to hurt the "two" of them.) but for the most part? for the most part, zaley is a happy person, a very very VERY creative soul who leans heavily on self-expression to keep her, pardon the expression, sane.
nightmares[/font] "anna", failure, herself, losing everyone she cares about (most specifically through them finding out about her condition and abandoning her)
daydreams[/font] reconnect with her mother, conquer her personal demon, find someone to love her, learn to love herself, become "normal"
secrets[/font] her sister "anna" isn't real in the normal sense (see her persona); struggles with suicidal thoughts and tendencies, varying with the strength of "anna"'s voice
what they see[/font] when the general population looks at zaley, what they see is a bit of an oxymoron. they see a girl who can be extremely hyperactive, smiley, bubbly, and happy; these are her good days. they probably think the reason she is here is bipolar disorder, because she is completely different on bad days, which are increasingly common upon her admission at st. helen's. on a bad day, zaley is moody, distrustful, depressed, short of temper, or just plain reclusive and silent. they see a very very creative lover of all the arts who loves friends, yet has self esteem issues, despite being a beautiful young girl with a sparkling personality and a handicap of the mind and spirit.
family[/font] alex bradley, father, age unknown, never met, deceased (suicide)
jamie vera-bradley, mother, age 45, estranged, strained relationship at best, disowned at worst
description[/font] alex bradley and jamie vera were married on a sunny april day. mrs. bradley had no idea what she was getting herself into--all she saw was a stunningly handsome young man with charm and potential. both were very young, 19 and 18 respectively. but after about three months of marriage, jamie started to notice changes in alex. he was withdrawn, snappy, and sometimes downright delusional. it was a good three more months before she finally got him to go in for a diagnosis--alex was schizophrenic. but as it often is with schizophrenia (the remarkable thing is--the person who is diagnosed sees themself as completely normal and sees everyone else as the ones with problems), alex refused to take his medication or seek any treatment. being over the age of 18, nobody could force him to seek psychiatric help. so jamie left. but as soon as she left her beloved, deranged husband, she realized she could never truly leave him behind--she was pregnant. jamie did not want her daughter to be raised in a house where her father would be potentially violent and certainly unpredictable. all jamie could do was hope her baby turned out okay, although even if schizophrenia would occur, it would be well down the line--schizophrenia typically showed up in the female population around twenty-five or thirty. but then, when zaley was fifteen, she started to act a bit strangely. she began to talk about a girl named 'anna' who she said was her twin sister. now, if anyone knew that zaley hadn't had a twin, it certainly was her mother! but zaley insisted. it was obviously extremely odd for a fifteen year old girl to suddenly make up an imaginary friend, so jamie took her daughter to a psychologist even though she feared it would confirm the worst. which, it did. zaley was schizophrenic, just like the shadowy figure of her father. they gave zaley medication to take care of the "voice" that zaley knew as the spirit of her "twin sister", but zaley refused to take them. it was a sore subject in the house because all jamie wanted was a normal daughter and all zaley wanted was for her mother to stop trying to take away her "best friend" and "sister" through "murder". her mother only wanted the best for her daughter but couldn't help but become distant with zaley, because without helping it, she blamed zaley. why couldn't she just give up and take the medication?! plus, jamie was a devout christian; she constantly pushed christ on her daughter in hopes that god could do more for her than a mother's own love could, which caused zaley to resent religion and her mother, a bit, because there was a major blame storm going on in the bradley household. so jamie finally gave up on zaley for all intensive purposes, sending her now seventeen year old daughter zaley to st. helena, deciding with the transfer of her child to drift from the position of a mother to that of an eccentric, religious aunt who you hear from only when she's nagging you or sending an odd birthday or christmas check. so, here we are. zaley is the new girl at st. helena, in pain from her mother's damn near disowning her, as well as the constant struggle with herself and "anna", but she's doing her best...the end?
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YOU'RE ALL THE THINGS I'VE GOT TO REMEMBER ,
you're shying away but i'll be coming for you anyway[/i][/center]
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[/center][/color]the writer's name, contacts (if any):[/font] call meh asho. feel free to email or pm me, my msn is my email, so you have that too :D
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